N Sunday, May 27, 2007
it has been a month since i last blogged.. feeling a bit emo, so decided to pay a visit here..
no idea what happened today.. feel abit sian while singing ktv today.. pple jumping queue for their turn to sing, time is too short with so many pple around.. there is not much airtime lah.. perhaps it is the turn of events that happened all these time that made me down..
have been working on my own for so long.. there are no close friends to support me, be it in camp or outside.. haiz.. my level of thinking and my friends' level of thinking is different.. having some money more than others has taken a whole new meaning for me.. i dun worship money, but i would like my friends to have the same level of thinking as i am so that we can talk on more common topics, rather than topics bout how difficult it is, studying in uni and living in hostel.. u will realise that these things r v mundane and the only reply pple get will be 'sianz lor'..
it cant be this way lah.. it doesnt work out.. think i have to pull myself away from my jc friends who happen to think on a different level with me.. making every options possible and available impossible and it is frustrating..
it really make me think again why am i doing this.. as said the previous time, screw it lah.. the dotted line was just too tempting.. to break the contract will be too much a blow to everyone..
' the world continues to spin' , 12:58 am
