N Saturday, March 31, 2007
there is a lot to grumble about when so many things happened within these 2 weeks.. one thing at a time..
first, officership.. pardon me if i sound offensive or passionate.. there is too much 2lt around in my camp.. because of estab problem, there are a lot of officers around.. pple who supposedly can make decisions.. but there are instances whereby my understudies are not behaving like what officers do.. they can come up to me and ask me what to do when they meet up with a situation.. aka their problem solver.. if an officer cannot even take care of themselves, and make sound decisions on their own, what makes you an officer? duty-wise, they just anyhow do.. no discipline, no one to look at them.. now, things crop up and everyone just start pointing fingers and blaming each other.. told them to account for their actions.. i think whatever they do for their duties goes unpunished.. wtf.. now i dun understand what they get their rank for.. to siam everything?
second, after reviewing one of my posts with regards to my scholorship, i have gotten the lowest among all kind of scholorship.. after that, i ended off by saying not doing anything till march.. i guess i cant say that anymore.. cuz all kinds of arrow are shooting at me because my bloody irresponsible direct boss went to apply leave without informing me first.. because of that, i have to do all of his work.. just because i am covering him.. its like i am clocking my tour as a covering but it doesnt count when i come back from studies.. how fair can that be? the best part is that i am not going to pull any kind of stunts and just wanna study.. my frens are all going to clear leave very early to study, but i cant.. cuz most of my understudies cannot make it.. what the hell is my world coming into?
third, i am disappointed with the efficiency of the navy.. shant elaborate more, but we waited for hours for things to happen.. when it did, it screwed up, big time.. waste my time planning.. waste everyone's time..
forth, what is happening to me? i looked lost and feel lost after the whole training.. i start to wonder at what price do i get from earning that credit-less pay? no wonder i like the word 'soulless'.. how apt can it get? haha.. pple who dun do work still get the same amount of pay as those who worked their butts out.. it is a test of responsibility.. whoever work more will be at the losing end.. why am i so foolish to be on the losing end?
that is the end of my grumbles for the past 2 weeks.. alot has happened.. and i am just du lan that there is no end to these bull shit..
i need to slp.. ciaoz..
' the world continues to spin' , 1:19 am
