N Saturday, December 30, 2006
it's coming to the end of the year already.. going to grow older for 1 more year.. seriously, getting older is really easy.. all we need to do is to sit one corner and watch the world pass by.. well, tts getting older for u.. growing up is much tougher.. u have to think more sensible, do things with more maturity and do what u think is within ur responsibility..
i hate to say this but alot of things happened within my work, and i really dunno how to express my feelings when i talk bout work.. pple always asked me if i have made the correct decision so far.. my standard ans will be :' i dun really hate my job, but neither do i like my job..' an answer that is equalvalent to not answering at all..
actually my life is at the cross roads this year for me.. i have to decide alot of things within the year, like my scholarship interview board and a place for me to study.. my second career, whether i should continue or not, because of the heavy work load that i have right now.. i really thought of giving up for both my careers at one point or another in this year.. it is really tiring.. luckily i have such supportive parents that helped me to trudge my way through.. 2006, by far, is the most mentally taxing year of my life, as every decision that i make will really affect my life in the future..
if i were to tell my dad that i decided to break my bond, and not going to uni and study, u will see him in a fit of rage.. tts how serious it can be.. i noe i have to make a decision soon but i really have no idea which to concentrate on..
my highlights of this year is getting commissioned in march, in which we are all very happy at that moment, without realising how much shit is going to land on our heads as the peak caps, that we threw, drops back.. Next comes the national day parade, where im involed in one of the bit part roles that has to do a lot of work when compared to my peers, just because of where i stand.. next comes the super big army exercise, where i shant say much.. but it juz very mentally torturing.. after that, im off to india for a month, doing nth but going outfield.. made pple du lan, learn alot of things which i have never known before.. came back to become a more knowleadgeable person den b4..
now its towards end of the year.. i can have time to think about what do i wanna do in my life.. im quite free now actually.. and i have nobody to countdown with so far.. i wish i could see a fortune teller and tell me what i will expect for next year.. so that i wont start up cold or can defy expectations.. haha..
slp for now.. tmr is another day of fighting..
' the world continues to spin' , 1:19 am
